I meed advice/ help - Please read.
Hi everyone thank you for letting me join this site.I will appreciate if you take time and give me advice.
Here is my story: I was born 10.May.1999 with rare genetic problem [ to summarise I have internal problems and also I must avoid sunlight]. I started to talk earlier than normal but started to walk latter than normal. I was shy introverted kid. I needed time to get used to someone and after that I started to communicate with them. Many adults pointed out that I sound like someone whiser , someone older. After a while I purposely started to talk more childlike because for the small number of kids that actually liked me the way I talked.was too strange/complicated.I always had talent in art,music and writing.I am not like genius but especially at the early ages of my life my skills ware way about the average [People still are telling me that I have talent although I don't think It is so significant]. I lived most of the time only with my mother l,my father wasn't active part of my childhood ,I never felt enough,in the right place,like I fit it,I thought I was adopted.
In my early teenage years I was alone like lone wolf.I made some friends and although they thought they can use me I was the one who could read their intentions and purposely let it be because I felt bored when I am alone so I let them "play" with me.I cried every night because I felt out of place I felt like I lack important information or like this is not the way I should live..I had several strange situations where I would feel like I am dreaming or looking at my body from afar. I was panicking NB when I though about death ,when I imagined that I wouldn't feel a thing and that my feelings would disappear I was terrified. This fear stopped me from learning how to swim, I learned at age of 18. I also talked a lot to myself and friquetly had deja vu. I felt better [and still I do ] at night when everything is quiet and calm and I can think about things like what is my purpose,who Inam or just let the emotions I hold on to be shown,I draw, listen to music,play games and watch shows. I am not sure if that was purely my imagination but I friquetly talked with someone in my mind I started to acknowledge that I can't remember many things from my childhood more than normal but that wasn't because I suffered from something I was healthy. I friquetly spaced out and couldn't remember tasks that I must do, for me to remember birthdays was and still is really hard .
After age of 15 I consiously started to pay attention to people and to try to figure out their intentions. I sometimes saw things like how I couldn't hold my cup with coffee and it felt down like vision while I was with open eyes and I payed extra attention not to drop it . I never believed in God, I never liked how people use religion ,I was against many social constructed things like work time the obsession with money [Despite the fact that I know we need them and I also buy things I hate money],the gender norms and many more. I believed that ancient buildings and things like Nazca lines are impossible to build without helo from someone advanced.
My parents although divorced live with me I hate that because I can feel like actual suffocating feelings when I am in one room with them ,I nearly all the time try to avoid my father because I feel so uneasy near him. I just recently found about starseeds, elementals ,angels , psychic powers and ect ,I think that I might be one of them but I don't know because I tend to be more aggressive in nature like wolf [Compared to starseeds ] I love to help I want to help people feel better via my art but often I see people as stupid or too slow.I have strange eyes but I am short and I am not skinny/slender - 150 cm 50 kg [Again unlike starseeds that are slim with long neck]. Some aspects fit,some not.
I am also unsure if I am psychic or I just imagine some things because it works on it's own I have feelings [like that about my father or people intentions or what will happen ] or visions [blurry ones not bright] but especially the visions I can never use them on my own. When i try i think I false imagine and I am not actually using them. THAN YOU for reading all that. Please help me to find what is going on
Welcome to the site KaiWolf, what an interesting life you have had.
I added your birth number to find your life path is a 7 these people have a frequency of seeking the truth. You will always search for more and more in your life, you have a deep wisdom and need to find what you seek outside of you. Go within you first, then you will master your life around you.
You are a unique individual as we all are, how lovely that you know you are not like anyone else. All those with great talent who have offered so much to our world we’re always outcast, or felt odd like they did not belong - look at great people in history - Nostradamus, Tesla, Einstein, Vincent Van Gogh, there are so many.
I guess what I am saying is embrace your unique individual quirkiness. You are who you are at this time - it is a journey to learn more about who you are. Seems as you write you really are more aware of who you are; more than most people.
Do what gives you joy, find your passion and work with it , it doesn’t matter what it is as long as it gives you comfort and joy. The more you work within your energy of happiness the more you will vibrate to find what I call your tribe. That is people that get you and appreciate your differences and your unique abilities.
Once you work on feeling at home here on this earth plane you will begin to understand with an inner knowing not only why you are here but also where you came from - whether it is another earth lifetime or from another planetary multiverse.
The fact that you can ‘tap in’ to knowing what peoples intentions are is most definitely a psychic ability.
Maybe I haven’t given you the answers you were looking for but that is not how I work. Life and its’ understanding is a process, it is delving in to the emotions of this process that makes us grow. After all this is one of the many reasons we are here.
All the very best 🙂
Ria
KaiWolf wrote: ↑Sat Jul 27, 2019 8:33 pm
Hi everyone thank you for letting me join this site.I will appreciate if you take time and give me advice.
Here is my story: I was born 10.May.1999 with rare genetic problem [ to summarise I have internal problems and also I must avoid sunlight]. I started to talk earlier than normal but started to walk latter than normal. I was shy introverted kid. I needed time to get used to someone and after that I started to communicate with them. Many adults pointed out that I sound like someone whiser , someone older. After a while I purposely started to talk more childlike because for the small number of kids that actually liked me the way I talked.was too strange/complicated.I always had talent in art,music and writing.I am not like genius but especially at the early ages of my life my skills ware way about the average [People still are telling me that I have talent although I don't think It is so significant]. I lived most of the time only with my mother l,my father wasn't active part of my childhood ,I never felt enough,in the right place,like I fit it,I thought I was adopted.
In my early teenage years I was alone like lone wolf.I made some friends and although they thought they can use me I was the one who could read their intentions and purposely let it be because I felt bored when I am alone so I let them "play" with me.I cried every night because I felt out of place I felt like I lack important information or like this is not the way I should live..I had several strange situations where I would feel like I am dreaming or looking at my body from afar. I was panicking NB when I though about death ,when I imagined that I wouldn't feel a thing and that my feelings would disappear I was terrified. This fear stopped me from learning how to swim, I learned at age of 18. I also talked a lot to myself and friquetly had deja vu. I felt better [and still I do ] at night when everything is quiet and calm and I can think about things like what is my purpose,who Inam or just let the emotions I hold on to be shown,I draw, listen to music,play games and watch shows. I am not sure if that was purely my imagination but I friquetly talked with someone in my mind I started to acknowledge that I can't remember many things from my childhood more than normal but that wasn't because I suffered from something I was healthy. I friquetly spaced out and couldn't remember tasks that I must do, for me to remember birthdays was and still is really hard .
After age of 15 I consiously started to pay attention to people and to try to figure out their intentions. I sometimes saw things like how I couldn't hold my cup with coffee and it felt down like vision while I was with open eyes and I payed extra attention not to drop it . I never believed in God, I never liked how people use religion ,I was against many social constructed things like work time the obsession with money [Despite the fact that I know we need them and I also buy things I hate money],the gender norms and many more. I believed that ancient buildings and things like Nazca lines are impossible to build without helo from someone advanced.
My parents although divorced live with me I hate that because I can feel like actual suffocating feelings when I am in one room with them ,I nearly all the time try to avoid my father because I feel so uneasy near him. I just recently found about starseeds, elementals ,angels , psychic powers and ect ,I think that I might be one of them but I don't know because I tend to be more aggressive in nature like wolf [Compared to starseeds ] I love to help I want to help people feel better via my art but often I see people as stupid or too slow.I have strange eyes but I am short and I am not skinny/slender - 150 cm 50 kg [Again unlike starseeds that are slim with long neck]. Some aspects fit,some not.
I am also unsure if I am psychic or I just imagine some things because it works on it's own I have feelings [like that about my father or people intentions or what will happen ] or visions [blurry ones not bright] but especially the visions I can never use them on my own. When i try i think I false imagine and I am not actually using them. THAN YOU for reading all that. Please help me to find what is going on
Your path is a 43/7.......this energy is where you will feel like your alone (7)......the 7 is higher vibration and is visionary (Sagittarius/ Jupiter, Pisces/Neptune). The 4 is where you are to take control of your energies and direct them to where they serve you better, this is about foundations, your environment (Uranus/Aquarius). The 3 is about networking, learning beyond so higher education, communication, friendly persona (Jupiter/Sagittarius). Using your energies towards a direction you want to see happen for yourself. You have humanitarian energy (3), so you can use that to walk towards becoming a healer. This 3 offers you so much in working with that energy.........Wicca......Reiki healer......research what matters to you.....therapist and so on. The gifts are their waiting for you to unwrap. Your at the age of getting close to your Saturn Return usually that event happens near 28, when a person takes stock in their life, where they are going. They begin to think of their directional path, what they should be doing sort of thing.
Since May you entered a year vibration cycle of 27/9..........This energy is about letting go, nurturing yourself, believing in you, it's a time where you grow to love yourself for who you are. If others can't understand you then so be it, they not at your level of vibration and not meant to be in your space at this time. Your thoughts are focused on building the (8) for what you want at this time.